Ok.. so here is my rant on finances. When I moved to a new city to be with my boyfriend I knew it was going to be hard adjusting and making new friends. The last time I tried this I was going away to college. When it proved to to be too tough or no not even too hard, just hard, I bailed and would visit my bf at his college which was 45 mins away. I did this for a year and a half and then I just transferred there. So now, when I am actually needing my people making skills, I am finding that I have them, but now the issue is I don't have money to do anything.
I can't begin to make friendships b/c I don't have money to do anything with anyone. I can't do HH with anyone. I can't go grab coffee. I can't get a bite to eat. I can't go shopping. I can't do anything. I don't want to complain to my bf b/c I don't want to burden him with any more of my issues. It's just really annoying.
I am so sick of not having money for so many reasons.
Thursday, October 8, 2009
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
TMI Tuesday
1. You can flip a switch that will wipe any band or musical artist out of existence. Which one will it be?
I guess I'm going to have to say the King of Leon. I cant' stand them and their music is everywhere and I can't get away from "use somebody."
2. You seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy crap, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it?
I'd take my baby (aka the boyfriend) out to dinner and then just randomly spend the rest on lunches or coffee. Not really all that exciting.
3. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anytime in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there?
Wow. This is honestly a tough one. I don't think I'd go back. Everything that is in the past has lead me to where I am today and I am very happy right now. I mean, I guess I'd travel back in time to when i was in college just so I could live carefree on $100 every 2 weeks and take lots of drugs and drink lots of beer and just have a good time. I'd be more outgoing I suppose. Maybe sleep around.
4. What is your favorite curse word?
Ummm.. Fuck. How is that not everyone's favorite curse word?
5. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice?
Megan Fox... or.... well I don't really think anyone in Hollywood is THAT hot. i don't really notice.
Bonus (as in optional):You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What's it gonna be?
I'd want the ability to make people Spontaneously shit themselves. Anyone, anywhere, at any time.
I guess I'm going to have to say the King of Leon. I cant' stand them and their music is everywhere and I can't get away from "use somebody."
2. You seem to be having an excellent day because you just came across a hundred-dollar bill on the sidewalk. Holy crap, a hundred bucks! How are you gonna spend it?
I'd take my baby (aka the boyfriend) out to dinner and then just randomly spend the rest on lunches or coffee. Not really all that exciting.
3. Rufus appears out of nowhere with a time-traveling phone booth. You can go anytime in the PAST. What time are you traveling to and what are you going to do when you get there?
Wow. This is honestly a tough one. I don't think I'd go back. Everything that is in the past has lead me to where I am today and I am very happy right now. I mean, I guess I'd travel back in time to when i was in college just so I could live carefree on $100 every 2 weeks and take lots of drugs and drink lots of beer and just have a good time. I'd be more outgoing I suppose. Maybe sleep around.
4. What is your favorite curse word?
Ummm.. Fuck. How is that not everyone's favorite curse word?
5. You have the opportunity to sleep with the movie celebrity of your choice. We are talking no-strings-attached sex and it can only happen once. Who is the lucky celebrity of your choice?
Megan Fox... or.... well I don't really think anyone in Hollywood is THAT hot. i don't really notice.
Bonus (as in optional):You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What's it gonna be?
I'd want the ability to make people Spontaneously shit themselves. Anyone, anywhere, at any time.
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
TMI Tuesday
1. Have you ever shared sleeping accommodations with someone of the without anything steamy happening? (Opposite sex for breeders, same sex for homosexuals).
Oh Yeah. All the time in college. Some of my best friends are male and there really is no sexual chemistry. I mean, why waste the space in a queen sized bed?
2. Have you eve streaked, flashed, or otherwise partially or totally exposed yourself in public before (or after) an informal, unofficial gathering of people?
Oh yeah. I used to flash "the girls" all the time. It was a running joke with my friends. I'd always get on my friend Chris' shoulders and do it.
I was at a concert with my sister, her boyfriend and his two friends. We got separated and figured we'd meet up after. Well, I met up with my friend and sure enough, I got on his shoulders and flashed the crowd. My sister's boyfriend and friends saw it and that's how they found out where we were!
I think that I have really good breasts and I like to show them off. Well I did like to show them off. They stay hidden now. Now I just wear shirts that reveal my cleavage.. which is way more classy.
3. Have you had dates with multiple people in the same weekend (or consecutive nights or the same night) while not all of your dates were aware of your actions?
Not at all. I hardly date.
4. What is the most "romantic" you have ever gotten in a movie theater?
I've just really made out pretty heavily. Oh.. wait. In High School there was a boy that went down my pants. That didn't really go well. I believe my pants were way too tight.
5. Have you ever had sex when you knew a non-participating adult was watching?
Not that I know of, but I would totally do it. The thought of someone else watching me totally turns me on. Now, don't get it twisted. I don't want to be swingers. No one is having sex with my man as I watch.
Bonus (as in optional): If you could say anything you wanted anonymously to anyone, without identifying that person, what would you say?
I don't know. I guess I just keep stuff to myself or I say it to someone. Anything that I have to say, I've said or it doesn't really matter. I am also not one to kick someone when they are down so I won't say what I'd like to say to my ex best friend.
Oh Yeah. All the time in college. Some of my best friends are male and there really is no sexual chemistry. I mean, why waste the space in a queen sized bed?
2. Have you eve streaked, flashed, or otherwise partially or totally exposed yourself in public before (or after) an informal, unofficial gathering of people?
Oh yeah. I used to flash "the girls" all the time. It was a running joke with my friends. I'd always get on my friend Chris' shoulders and do it.
I was at a concert with my sister, her boyfriend and his two friends. We got separated and figured we'd meet up after. Well, I met up with my friend and sure enough, I got on his shoulders and flashed the crowd. My sister's boyfriend and friends saw it and that's how they found out where we were!
I think that I have really good breasts and I like to show them off. Well I did like to show them off. They stay hidden now. Now I just wear shirts that reveal my cleavage.. which is way more classy.
3. Have you had dates with multiple people in the same weekend (or consecutive nights or the same night) while not all of your dates were aware of your actions?
Not at all. I hardly date.
4. What is the most "romantic" you have ever gotten in a movie theater?
I've just really made out pretty heavily. Oh.. wait. In High School there was a boy that went down my pants. That didn't really go well. I believe my pants were way too tight.
5. Have you ever had sex when you knew a non-participating adult was watching?
Not that I know of, but I would totally do it. The thought of someone else watching me totally turns me on. Now, don't get it twisted. I don't want to be swingers. No one is having sex with my man as I watch.
Bonus (as in optional): If you could say anything you wanted anonymously to anyone, without identifying that person, what would you say?
I don't know. I guess I just keep stuff to myself or I say it to someone. Anything that I have to say, I've said or it doesn't really matter. I am also not one to kick someone when they are down so I won't say what I'd like to say to my ex best friend.
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
Random Thought
On my way into work today, i was hit by a large woman's arm. Like... I don't get why large/heavy women need to swing their arms so wildly to give them momentum to walk. But I really don't get why this woman hit me and then said something under her breath about me. Like it was my fault that she hit me. She's lucky i was still sleepy.
TMI Tuesday #203
http://tmituesday.blogspot.com/2009/09/tmi-tuesday-203.html
THESE ARE MY QUESTIONS!!
So I'm guessing I should give really good answers.
1) If you were to only live until the age of 50, how would you live your life differently?
Well I guess I would travel. There is so many places that I want to see and so many cultures still left to explore that I would do that. I find myself saying, "I will get there.... someday." I'd make that someday happen.
2) Are you settling in your job/career?
I was. I hated my last job and that's why I was only there for about a month and then I just told them that I wasn't going to come back. It was dreadful. The first day I was there I got a badge and then I was just sat at a desk and no one showed me anything. No one talked to me. I didn't do anything. I was working in a hospital so I started to read the physicians book about where they all went to school and their specialties. It was awful.
I do think that there is a time when you do need to really prove yourself at your job so yes, you'll get shitty tasks to do, but there needs to be an end goal. I am finally happy at a job with great co-workers and great bosses. Finally... at 31.
3) Are you settling with your significant other?
Uggg... I think so. Currently I am, BUT (and it's a big but) it could be great if only he'd make some changes. He used to be a Jehovah's Witness, but his family converted when he was 10 so he was forced to change. He decided at 18 to leave that religion and his family behind. So now, he refuses to change. He says that if he doesn't see it as a problem, then he won't change.
For example. The way that he speaks to me and to everyone in general. It's the way in which he words his sentences and his tone of voice. It takes on an air of superiority. I also can't tell when he's joking or kidding around. His tone of voice doesn't change.
I really want him to work on it, but if he won't then I don't know what to do. I love him, but I won't stay if I feel that I am the one changing to benefit the relationship. Right now it's going well, but it could be better.
So.. to make a short story long... yes I am settling, but there is the potential for growth.
That's kinda sad though. To wait for someone to change b/c there is potential for him to be awesome. I just want a partner. I just want to feel that I have someone on my side. A partner. That's what I want.
4) How important is your family?
My family is so important to me. I am the youngest of three girls and I am the scrappy one. I will kick anyone's ass that messes with my sisters or my family. My mom used to tell us that "we were the best present that they gave us." Meaning, my sister's were the best present that my parent's gave us. I didn't agree back then, but now I do. I am very close to my whole family.
5) If you caught a neighbor peeping in at you while you were naked or having sex, would you close the blinds? (assuming you live in a city and can see into other buildings).
Ummm.. hell yeah. I'd be totally ok with it and even put on a bigger show for them.
THESE ARE MY QUESTIONS!!
So I'm guessing I should give really good answers.
1) If you were to only live until the age of 50, how would you live your life differently?
Well I guess I would travel. There is so many places that I want to see and so many cultures still left to explore that I would do that. I find myself saying, "I will get there.... someday." I'd make that someday happen.
2) Are you settling in your job/career?
I was. I hated my last job and that's why I was only there for about a month and then I just told them that I wasn't going to come back. It was dreadful. The first day I was there I got a badge and then I was just sat at a desk and no one showed me anything. No one talked to me. I didn't do anything. I was working in a hospital so I started to read the physicians book about where they all went to school and their specialties. It was awful.
I do think that there is a time when you do need to really prove yourself at your job so yes, you'll get shitty tasks to do, but there needs to be an end goal. I am finally happy at a job with great co-workers and great bosses. Finally... at 31.
3) Are you settling with your significant other?
Uggg... I think so. Currently I am, BUT (and it's a big but) it could be great if only he'd make some changes. He used to be a Jehovah's Witness, but his family converted when he was 10 so he was forced to change. He decided at 18 to leave that religion and his family behind. So now, he refuses to change. He says that if he doesn't see it as a problem, then he won't change.
For example. The way that he speaks to me and to everyone in general. It's the way in which he words his sentences and his tone of voice. It takes on an air of superiority. I also can't tell when he's joking or kidding around. His tone of voice doesn't change.
I really want him to work on it, but if he won't then I don't know what to do. I love him, but I won't stay if I feel that I am the one changing to benefit the relationship. Right now it's going well, but it could be better.
So.. to make a short story long... yes I am settling, but there is the potential for growth.
That's kinda sad though. To wait for someone to change b/c there is potential for him to be awesome. I just want a partner. I just want to feel that I have someone on my side. A partner. That's what I want.
4) How important is your family?
My family is so important to me. I am the youngest of three girls and I am the scrappy one. I will kick anyone's ass that messes with my sisters or my family. My mom used to tell us that "we were the best present that they gave us." Meaning, my sister's were the best present that my parent's gave us. I didn't agree back then, but now I do. I am very close to my whole family.
5) If you caught a neighbor peeping in at you while you were naked or having sex, would you close the blinds? (assuming you live in a city and can see into other buildings).
Ummm.. hell yeah. I'd be totally ok with it and even put on a bigger show for them.
Monday, September 7, 2009
Rant
Ok.. so I think I am stuck in a dating "rock and a hard place." I have this man, that i think I love, but really, he's not right for me. I know this. So do you stay with him b/c right now, it's ok, or do you leave because it's not right and you know it's not right?
Here is some background. I moved to DC from about 2 hours away, so it's not a huge drive to get back home. I just don't want to go there. I just started a job and got my first half of a paycheck so I don't have any money saved up. I have a friend that just bought a house, kinda far away, in VA and I'm pretty sure I can rent a room from him.
This man has said to me, point blank, "I am not going to change. I won't change until I think/feel that this is a problem." Ummm.. ok. WTF?
Then again, we did have some pretty good sex last night. Pretty good, but not excellent. I just feel that there is someone out there for me that I can share a partnership with. Right now, no partnership.
Seriously, to be 30 (something) in a great city. Who knows? Maybe I'll leave BF and really get a good blog going. Exciting stories of dating in DC. (I'm sure there are probably already blogs out there like that).
Anyway, I'm off to go masterbate since I'm not really getting off with sex with the BF.
Here is some background. I moved to DC from about 2 hours away, so it's not a huge drive to get back home. I just don't want to go there. I just started a job and got my first half of a paycheck so I don't have any money saved up. I have a friend that just bought a house, kinda far away, in VA and I'm pretty sure I can rent a room from him.
This man has said to me, point blank, "I am not going to change. I won't change until I think/feel that this is a problem." Ummm.. ok. WTF?
Then again, we did have some pretty good sex last night. Pretty good, but not excellent. I just feel that there is someone out there for me that I can share a partnership with. Right now, no partnership.
Seriously, to be 30 (something) in a great city. Who knows? Maybe I'll leave BF and really get a good blog going. Exciting stories of dating in DC. (I'm sure there are probably already blogs out there like that).
Anyway, I'm off to go masterbate since I'm not really getting off with sex with the BF.
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
TMI Tuesday #202
1. If you could have monumental sex where would it be (i.e. on Lincoln's lap, the stairwell of the Statute of Liberty)?
Monumental Sex? I have had monumental sex.... oh.. like national monument or something. Since I live in DC there are numerous places that I could do it on. I'd say though, one of the trolley cars in San Francisco. That way, as we rolled on through the city, we'd give everyone a great show.
2. Have you ever "played" with your food (i.e. a blowjob under booth #9 at Denny's, finger banging by candlelight at Spago)?
Ummm.. Not that I can really remember. I know I've rubbed on him and what not, but through his pants.
3. Have you ever had sex in motion (i.e. the lavatory on Virgin Air, the back seat of your Chevy Suburban)?
I love giving road head. Enough said.
4. Have you ever had sex worthy of a confessional (i.e. a stall in the church bathroom, on the desk in your boss's office)?
Not confession worthy by location, but by what went on behind the closed door.
5. Have you ever had sex under the stars (i.e. in the alley behind Scores Gentleman's Club, the roof of your South Beach condo)?
As a matter of fact, I have. Serveral times and several different people. the last time was with the bf and it was at night, on my parent's deck under the stars. However, it was cold and I was freezing and shivering the whole time. That was NOT fun.
Bonus: What's your favorite place (of all places) to have sex (i.e. The Bunny Ranch, Las Vegas)?
My bf and I did it in the bathtub with a window right next to us on the like 20th floor of a hotel in Downtown Philly. It was awesome. There are pictures... but none that I'll share.
Monumental Sex? I have had monumental sex.... oh.. like national monument or something. Since I live in DC there are numerous places that I could do it on. I'd say though, one of the trolley cars in San Francisco. That way, as we rolled on through the city, we'd give everyone a great show.
2. Have you ever "played" with your food (i.e. a blowjob under booth #9 at Denny's, finger banging by candlelight at Spago)?
Ummm.. Not that I can really remember. I know I've rubbed on him and what not, but through his pants.
3. Have you ever had sex in motion (i.e. the lavatory on Virgin Air, the back seat of your Chevy Suburban)?
I love giving road head. Enough said.
4. Have you ever had sex worthy of a confessional (i.e. a stall in the church bathroom, on the desk in your boss's office)?
Not confession worthy by location, but by what went on behind the closed door.
5. Have you ever had sex under the stars (i.e. in the alley behind Scores Gentleman's Club, the roof of your South Beach condo)?
As a matter of fact, I have. Serveral times and several different people. the last time was with the bf and it was at night, on my parent's deck under the stars. However, it was cold and I was freezing and shivering the whole time. That was NOT fun.
Bonus: What's your favorite place (of all places) to have sex (i.e. The Bunny Ranch, Las Vegas)?
My bf and I did it in the bathtub with a window right next to us on the like 20th floor of a hotel in Downtown Philly. It was awesome. There are pictures... but none that I'll share.
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