Sad thoughts

Ok.. so I mean, what's the point with Al Gore? I don't live there and he doesn't live here. We are just under 2 hours apart. I can't keep driving down to see him all the time. It's crushing my money situation. I would move, but I don't think it would be right to move there or even in with him. I do want to move. I don't want to be here. I just don't know anything right now.

I mean, seriously, what's the point? I am enjoying being with him and I'm sure he enjoys being with me. What I need to do is concentrate on my life. I need to go back to school. I need to stop going to see him and spending money. I need to be and do me. It just sucks b/c he's just so wonderful and I enjoy my time with him so much. I guess it's one of those crappy relationships of, "maybe if we were in different places in our lives" but we aren't. We can't change that.

School will be a big commitment of time for me. It will require me to get a second job thus making it virtually impossible to see him at all. So, what's the point? I am sure that I'm putting off school b/c I don't want it to end with him, but I have to. I am 30. I am not getting any younger.

I just need to do it. I need to just be miserable for a while with two jobs and school and no Al Gore.