Rambling

Honestly, with my current boyfriend, he isn't what I signed up for. I think i want more and I dont' think he'll be able to give it to me. For right now it's great, but I don't see this as a lasting thing. I want it to be. I desperatly want it to be, but I don't think he's capable of giving me what I need.

what is is that I need? I need someone that is on par with me. Someone who likes to go out and do things socially as well as recreationally outside. (like walking places or jogging or biking). He isn't able to accept me for my different views on things. I guess maybe in his mind, he is able to do this, but to me, I end up feeling like I lost. When we talk about things and then it goes into discussions and then an argument, I always feel like I lost. I feel like it is me that is going to need to change since he is incapable of it.

He is incapable of it b/c he is satisfied in who he is. I do love that in him, but I wish he was able to at least compromise and try to see things from my view and try to even think about changing.

Also, the way that he talks. His tone of voice as well as how he words things makes him sound like a pompous ass. Someone that is trying to put me down. Although he swears up and down that he is not think that way, it's how it comes across to me. So I always feel like he's talking down to me and that makes me angry so I fight/strike back.

I just don't know if this a forever kind of thing. Is that wrong? Is it wrong to be with someone that you know isn't a forever if it's ok for right now? I have to deal with that every day. For now it's ok. Who knows what tomorrow or next month or next year is going to bring.