Vacation

Ok, well I was just in Ocean City, Maryland for the past week. It was wonderful and amazing and a great relaxing time. Anyway, Al Gore came with and well, the friends that we were with (11 of us plus me so 12) and none of them know anything about us. They knew that I had an FWB, but not who it was. Anyway, we had discussed this and I told him and well, I thought it was agreed that we weren't going to be so "out" with our affection. Especially after the freak out like 5 months ago where he was freaked out when he thought I wanted more right? Ok.. so at the OC he was all "babe" this and "babe" that. It was kinda crazy. He would touch me, rub my shoulders and what not. He would hold my hand and what not. I honestly didn't really care or whatever. I let it happen. I love him and it felt right and why fight it?

So I don't know what's up or where that leaves us. Honestly I don't really even care. It is what it is and who needs to define it? I mean, i get kind of antsy to be able to say we are dating or to be able to say that he's my boyfriend. But really, why does it matter? Titles are just societies way to normalize something... to make it acceptable.

I know what he means to me. I hope he knows what he means to me, but i don't really know. I think the one thing that we need to really work on is communication. He did say, over the week, that he doesn't like it when I would talk with other of my guy friends at the OC, but to his credit, I had no clue. That's what is great about him. It might bother him, but he's great about keeping it under wraps.

Also, I mean, I got a little bitchy and he was great about it. He was really calm and was like, "listen babe, you do whatever you want to do and I'm happy with it." He really is not like people that I date. He is different. Wonderful.

I will just continue to enjoy w/o definition of anything.