The ups and downs of a FWB to lover

Ok.. so this past weekend was good. I went down to see Al Gore and all was well. We went to Costco and bought him a great tv. Well technically I bought it since they only take cash, debit card or their American Express card. Since he only had a credit card, I just paid with my debit card. He gave me a check for it though.

We were both still suffering from craptastic colds. I am still suffering way worse then he is. Sunday night I ended up asleep before he was. I woke up when he was getting ready to go to bed. He had placed my box of Puffs Plus next to the bed. Got me some water and some cough drops and also had them right next to the bed. So freaking sweet of him to think of all of that for me. It is true that it is the little things that make you really appreciate and love someone.

When I woke up I went to the bathroom and there was a post-it-note from him on the mirror. Very cute as well. He knows that I have to wake up every night to pee so he put a post it note basically saying, "i know you are up to pee, but hurry up so you can get back to bed and snuggle with me. I love you." Then what was cute and weird was that he signed his name. Like I needed to know who it was from.

I drove home on Monday evening and while on the road I sent 2 text messages. Then another one when I was actually home. Not rcving any reply, I sent another one saying "well good thing your phone is working." Or something snide like that. I did get a response back the next morning, but I haven't read it yet.

he went out for dinner last night and I sent him just a "good night" text message and no response. So whatever. He's busy.

So today I got an IM from my friend in Florida, we'll call him BigJoo (as yes he is Jewish). He asked me if Al Gore was in the hospital and of course I said no b/c I had not heard about it. BigJoo copied me Al's facebook message and it basically said that he was at GWU hospital and dealing with a 9 out of 10 on the pain scale. But I still want to go to the Obama rally today.

I sent him an e-mail with "WTF?" and then copied his Facebook message. Long story short, he had kidney stones. However, while at the hospital he was able to update his Facebook message but was unable to even text me or call me to let me know he was in the hospital. Apparently our friend B-boy got him a taxi and took him to the hospital and in general took are of him, which I am grateful for. However, B-Boy knows my phone number and no text or call from him. Al.. nothing. I had to ask him about it.

So his reply was basically that he went to check to see if the internet worked on his phone and it did and he found out b/c he "accidentally" hit the facebook app. He was in the process of writing me an e-mail when the internet died and he lost it all. He said he didnt' want to worry me as he didn't know for sure what was up. I mean, srsly, just an e-mail or a text saying, "hey, going to the hospital for extremely sharp pains in my side. Will let you know what's up" NOTHING

Also, I just really feel that he is just not at a place right now where we should be together. After the beach he told me that he doesn't like the thought of me dating other people. And we also share the "i love yous" and what not. So I think, in any "normal" world that we'd be dating. However, I am still just a friend to him and to anyone he knows.

so we are going to have a "talk" at some point. He was supposed to come up this weekend, but we'll see. I just don't really know when to have it or how to have it. Should I send it in an e-mail or should we do it over IM as that's how a lot of our stuff goes down. Maybe I will call him and make him hear my voice when I say things.
WE don't talk enough..... well we don't communicate very well and that has to change.

It's just very hard b/c I do love this man and he is amazing and is wonderful and I am so relaxed around him, but I mean, I just get these feelings all the time that he's just not that into me. That it's all a show.