Why I can't have sex.. for 4 more weeks

ok.. so I was married technically I still am married. I moved out of my house that I bought with my STBE (soon to be ex) on 1/11/08. I was lucky enough to have a wonderful friend, M, who let me stay at his apt. He moved from Harrisburg to DC and his apt sat empty. It was a small apt, but I made it really cozy and homey. I loved it. It was like freedom to me. I was able to come home to this place that I could make my own. M would come into town and we'd hang out and then he'd be gone again. However, that piece of freedom ended on St. Patrick's day weekend (2008). M totally made me, and Irish Lassie, away from my drinking Holiday of St. Patrick's day. That move was awful. I'll tell you that story another day.

Anyway... so I'm in M's apt for like 2 months and then that little haven ended. I started have sex with my FWB (friend with benefits) so I decided to do the responsible thing and go to the gyno to get on birth control. I picked my dr b/c when I type, I can NEVER spell crap right. I always spell it Carp. I looked online for an in-net dr and found Dr. Carp. SWEET!!! That's my man.

I went and got a pap and was put on the Nuva Ring. I then get a call that my pap is abnormal so I have to come back for a colposcopy. Dr. Carp was like, "everything looks normal but we'll call you in about a week." So I got a call that I have pre-cancerous cells on my cervix that I have to get removed. That required a LEEP. I got that done last Thursday. They took off a HUGE chunk of my cervix!! I thought they were just going to take layers off. This piece of cervix was about and inch and a half long and about a quarter centimeter in thickness. I was shocked.

So.. that's why I can't have sex. I was told.. nothing up there. No sex, no tampons and no douches. Oh, I about died when the nurse said, "douche and post op" in the same sentence. What really sucks is that I'm finally getting laid and now I can't have sex for weeks. It sucks ass. I hate it. Sex right now is spec-fucking-tacular and I don't want to give it up.

ahhh.. any suggestions? I mean I have a vibrator and that is good for getting off, but I just love sex. I love the skin to skin contact. Being able to look into another's eyes to see him and his pleasure. I love his noises. I love my noises. I love for us both to get off. I love sex. I just love it. I wish I could have it every day. In the morning, at night and sometime in the middle of the night. Sure, I might not get a lot of sleep, but I'm all for it.