Ok.. so I exp. feelings with FWB that I have never felt.
Jealousy. I was never jealous with my ex. It was just never an issue with me. Maybe it's b/c I trusted him 100% and knew he would never hurt me or do anything to break that trust.
Ok.. so Sunday, I met Al and B Boy for dinner on Sunday right? I left at 11:30pm and they kept walking around the city. Just walking around. Not doing anything, but walking. B Boy is gay. I think he is a great guy so don't get it twisted. I don't hate him at all for it or hold anything against him. I just know that they walked for hours. Is this normal? Does a straight man do this with a gay man? What if people have thought that straight man was gay? I don't think that he is. he has just told me that other's have thought it.
I am just so rattled by Al Gore and I don't know how to take it. I want to just let it roll.... let it ride, but I just can't. I need a freaking hobby to pass my time
Oh, so I went on AshleyMadison.com and put an account up and put a picture up of me in a bikini.. no face of course. You would not believe the hits I got.. the messages... the winks. I feel bad for these men. They are in marriages where they just don't get enough sex. Boy how I can sympathize.
I have all this love to give and no one to give it to. Am I settling with Al? God I don't know. I HATE how I feel that I give and he takes and that's it. I really think that I need to write this down in an e-mail and send it to him. The only problem is that I feel I could risk losing him by writing my feelings. However, if I don't get this out, I feel that I am fucking myself over.
Uggg.. Oh.. Al Gore and B Boy are out for dinner now. I knew B boy was hungry so I said something to Al that they should grab food together. See, I give... i give.
Please, I just want someone to appreciate it and I want someone to give something in return.
-AM
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