Ashley Madison

So I read about AshleyMadison.com on another blog. It's basically a site for married people to hook up on a discreet website. I thought, "this sounds fun b/c I don't want anything but sex and if it's a married man then he'll only want the same." So i set up a profile and uploaded a picture of me in a bikini which was of course faceless. I put on my profile the things that I am looking for and what I do and don't like. The next day I received over 100 responses from people. I was shocked.

Why was I shocked? I didn't think anyone would really respond except my normal crackheads and Mexicans. It turns out that there are so many married men who are just not satisfied with their wives at home... more directly, with the sex that they are having or in some cases, not having, with their wives. I know how that feels. I had sex with my ex one time in just about 6 years. I know it sounds surprising, but it's the truth.

I feel that I could offer some of these men the sense of feeling wanted and I could provide them with direction (for lack of a better word). They all want a woman that knows what they want and will direct a man. I guess this is the problem when you get married. DON'T GET MARRIED. Problem solved.

I don't think that I'll ever really contact any of these men from AshleyMadison, but I always could. I just have always had a soft spot for men that I think I can help in some way shape or form. Also, I do have feelings for my fwb Al. I know I shouldn't but you can't help it or at least I can't help it.

I have a great, intense connection with Al that it's so hard not to fall for him. He is just genuinely nice and a sweetheart and you know what? Fuck his ex for not seeing it in him and not being able to appreciate it. He is kind and so smart and I love his intelligence. I find that so sexy.

I am not doing anything tonight, I don't think. So boring night. Tomorrow though, I am going to be hanging with my friend, The mutant Asian or the mutant, my sister and her best friend. We are going kayaking and then dinner. Yeah!

-am